“I reread all of your letters that night,” I pant. “I love the ones about when you got your first car and how you and your friends got arrested for the kegger out on some farm. You sounded so bad, so much fun.” I lean back, longing for his mouth again. “But the letter I love more than all the rest is when you told me about your ex-girlfriend after you’d broken up. I was so mad at first. You had a girlfriend, and you hadn’t told me, but…I think that’s when I first realized…”
“What?” he breathes out.
“That I wanted you. You were mine.”
“I was,” he assures. “It didn’t take me long to realize that I couldn’t talk to anyone like I talk to you.”
And I feel the same way. I always did. I couldn’t go out with anyone without comparing them to Misha. He had every right to date, and I’m sure whoever she was—or they were, because there were probably more—they weren’t bad people, but I still felt territorial. I knew him first. No one was going to know him better than me. I know I had no right to feel those things, which is why I never told him. Until now.
“I started fantasizing about you that rainy night. It was the first time I ever daydreamed about you.”
“What did you do?” He pushed his two fingers in deep, rubbing my spot and grinding himself on me. “Did you want to be her?”
I shook my head. “I wanted you to see me. I wanted you to see me and want me so much. Not just my letters, but my body, too.”
“What’d you do?” he whispers in my ear.
I moan, feeling a wave of pleasure fill my thighs and pussy, and I back up into him, wanting to be filled. “I laid in bed,” I say, “and I couldn’t stop thinking about you. It was so dark, and the AC wasn’t running. The more I thought about it, the hotter I got…until...”
“Until what?” He pumps my pussy faster, grinding his dick harder. “What’d you do?”
“I pulled up my shirt…”
“Yeah?”
“And imagined you were standing in the corner of my room, hidden in the shadows, watching me finger myself.”
“Don’t stop.”
“My skin was damp with sweat, because it was so hot,” I whimper, reaching over my head and holding the back of his neck, “and I slid my hand down my panties…”
“Did I like what I was seeing?”
“Yeah. We were always just friends. So calm, relaxed, and cute, but I wanted you to want me. I wanted you to see me and need to be inside me.”
“Did you come?” he growls low in my ear as I rock into him. “Did you come, thinking about me watching you?”
I nod, completely lost in the vision and his fingers. “I knew I’d do anything you asked me to. I’d let you have anything you wanted.”
“Is that true?”
“Anything.”
He removes his fingers from inside me, and I hear him unzip his pants.
“And what do you want?” he asks, his fingers gliding up my ass again.
I know what he wants. My heart is pumping wildly, and I’m shaking with need.
I lean my head back again, gasping over his mouth. “I want you everywhere.”
I feel his smile curl over my lips right before he kisses me. He moves his fingers between my thighs again, rubbing and getting me wetter with need.
“Everywhere?” he whispers.
I nod. I’m his. All of me.
I want him all over me.
His breath shakes over my lips. “Don’t do this because you think I want it,” he pleads. “I only want what you want to give me. I need to know you trust me again.”
His dark hair sits over his forehead, and his beautiful eyes tell me everything I need to hear without saying anything.
He hurt me, and I hurt him, but shit happens and love doesn’t change. He makes me happier, he makes me stronger, and he knows everything and still wants me. If he can say the same, then this is it. The real thing.
It’s us together.
My mom told me once “Life is fifty wrong turns down a bumpy road. All you can hope is that you end up somewhere nice.”
“I trust you,” I say, sinking into his mouth. “I want you.”
He swirls the wetness between my legs farther up, and I slide my hand between me and the bed, rubbing my clit as he positions himself. I’m throbbing everywhere, and my heart pounds in my chest as he pushes the tip in and stops. I gasp, feeling a tiny burn.
I contract around him, breathing hard and rubbing myself faster.
“Ryen,” he breathes out. “Do you want me to stop?”
I shake my head, feeling so filled and good. I didn’t expect that. “No. I want more.”
“Oh, God.”
He slides in slowly, all the way, and I arch my ass up, giving him a better position.
“Holy shit,” he growls low. “You feel so good. I need to…”
I close my eyes, every nerve alive and pulsing with need. He comes down on my back, kissing me as he thrusts out and back in deeper.
“Ah,” I moan into his mouth.
“Are you okay?”
“No,” I whimper. “Go faster.”
He smiles, holding himself up with one hand and holding my thigh where my leg and hip meet. “Are you sure?”
I nod, intense pleasure washing over me and making me grip the pillows as I arch my neck back to meet his lips.
“I trust you,” I tell him.