And these men, who spent their free time bellied up to the bar or kicked back watching a game, knew my pain.
Fuck.
I looked to the office door.
I looked to the shot.
I grabbed the shot and slammed it.
Then I slammed the glass on the bar, looked through the men who were now all grinning at me, glad they were at the bar and not heading to the office with me, and I trudged to the office.
I opened the door and shut it behind me, thinking that Morrie knew what he was saying when he’d said I needed three shots.
He should have given me all three.
He also should have warned me.
This was because the office looked like the dressing room of a drag show and Feb and Vi weren’t the only ones there. Mimi, Jessie, and fucking Josie Judd (who was more of a nut than Jessie, and that was nearly impossible) were there too.
“Please, God, tell me Raquel Layne is not about to walk through that door, ’cause I know my bitches wouldn’t invite Merry’s sister to come and offer me a dress to borrow to go on a date with him, a date where, at the end, it’s a foregone conclusion I’m gonna get lucky.”
They all laughed.
I didn’t because not one of them assured me Rocky wasn’t showing.
Finally, Mimi reached to nab my hand and dragged me further into the small space, saying, “Of course we didn’t invite Rocky.”
“How many shots did Morrie pour you before lettin’ you in here?” Feb asked.
“Two,” I answered.
“I thought he’d go for three,” she muttered.
“Right, we got precious little time,” Jessie snapped, glaring at me. “Only you would organize shit like this and give it fifteen minutes. That’s insanity.”
“Just pointin’ out, I didn’t organize anything,” I returned. “I asked Feb and Vi to bring a couple of dresses. I didn’t ask you at all.”
She swung her torso back, eyes getting huge. “Well pardon me that I’d haul half my wardrobe here to make sure you gave Merry good on your first date.”
“Bitch, you and I aren’t even the same size,” I shot back. “I like tight, but days where I let it all hang out are long gone and I only did that shit for money.”
Josie, Mimi, and Vi laughed, Feb grinned, but Jessie narrowed her eyes at me.
“Okay, well, I wasn’t supposed to tell you, Queen Attitude, but I didn’t bring half my wardrobe. Feb called and I went shoppin’. We girls are all buyin’ you a new dress to go on your first date with Merry because that’s the way it should be. A girl should feel special when she’s out with a good man who’s into her, first shot she’s takin’ at gettin’ somethin’ good in a long time, first shot he’s takin’ at findin’ somethin’ good. We were just gonna say that you could keep whatever you picked ’cause we don’t wear it anymore. But I got all the tags off everything in here so I can return what you don’t pick and you in a knock-his-socks-off dress is on your bitches.”
“Jessie!” Feb snapped.
But I stared, my eyes expanding in their sockets, so dry, they started burning.
“It isn’t a big deal,” Vi said quickly. “With all of us chipping in, it doesn’t cost hardly anything.”
I looked to the wall.
I looked to the floor.
They knew I had it bad for Merry.
All of them.
Of course they did. They were my bitches. From your bitches, your true bitches, you couldn’t hide anything.
Even if you tried.
“Don’t be mad,” Josie urged. “We don’t want you to be mad.” I looked at her to catch her eyes slicing to Jessie when she finished, “That was why you weren’t supposed to know.”
“Coolest thing anyone’s done for me.”
After these words came out, five pairs of startled eyes shot to me.
“I mean, coolest girlie-shit-type thing anyone’s done for me,” I amended.
Mimi grinned at Josie.
Feb smiled at the floor.
Jessie sent an “I knew it” smile at me.
Vi just sent a sweet Violet smile at me.
I moved toward a jumble of clothes on the desk.
“Right, let’s get this done. I got tips to make and some of this might require tryin’ on, so we don’t got a lotta time.”
“Start with this one,” Jessie commanded, throwing a green swatch of fabric at me. “It’s perfect for your coloring.”
“No, the red,” Meems contradicted. “That’s hot.”
“Green. Her hair, her eyes, it’s gotta be the green,” Josie put in.
I looked to Vi, then I looked to Feb.
None of us said anything.
But I had a feeling they knew exactly how bad my eyes were burning.
And they knew it hurt.
But they also knew that for a girl like me—a girl whose life turned to shit, but I made it through to stand in a small office in a small bar in a small town with women who had golden souls—that hurt felt good.
Chapter Eleven
No Pressure
Garrett
The next night, Garrett walked up Cher’s walk and he did it with his eyes to her front door, the lights inside illuminating the diamond window and coming muted through her front curtains.
He felt something and looked to his left to see a man two houses over, moving down his walk.
His head was turned.
His eyes were on Garrett.
It was dark, the man didn’t have his front light on¸ and there was distance so Garrett couldn’t see him well. But he was also a cop, so what he saw didn’t sit good in his gut.