I can’t shake my head. Because he’s not wrong. “If my brother is frustrated that he lost out on something he was preparing for, I’m going to be irritated and frustrated too. I’m on his side—I can’t change that, but we try not to let our feelings affect the team.”
He listens closely.
I push myself to add, “I thought Farrow was a good match for your mom. It didn’t take long to see that.”
Maximoff un-balls his fists to crack his knuckles. “Farrow’s first day in security. You made him run a 19k in the Poconos Mountains in the damn dark. Alone.” Anger flares in his green eyes. “Yet, that same day you gave Donnelly a pancake breakfast. Why single Farrow out?”
This , I should’ve expected. But it’s a blip in my mind.
“I wasn’t singling him out,” I say, honest about this. About everything. “It’ll take me longer than a second to explain.”
“You’re in luck. I have a millennium.”
I’ve never had to draw this picture of the team for anyone. But I’m about to try. “When we’re training new hires, we’re trying to build them into a bodyguard. It’s not about reading a textbook and doing a few jumping jacks. It’s more than that.”
Maximoff seems open to what I’m saying.
I pause for only a short beat. “The situations you and your family are in are so abnormal , and in training, we’re preparing fresh blood for this new norm. To react quickly and efficiently when confronted by hecklers and amassing crowds. To be alert when mentally fatigued. To follow protocol and orders on instinct. And only the leads are aware that the first day on the job is actually the final day of training. It’s a test.”
“A test for what?” Maximoff asks.
“To see how well they can follow orders. And to make sure they’re not here for fame and access to your family. If they complain or push back, we don’t let them through.”
Maximoff knows this isn’t security at a music festival. It’s 24/7, high-level close protection to American royalty. Some of us might be young, some of us might act like friends, but we’re on more than we’re off.
Vigilant, always.
“It’s not for the weak-willed,” I tell him.
His shoulders square. “That doesn’t explain the 19k versus a pancake breakfast.” He scrunches his face. “Were you just going easy on Donnelly?”
“No.” I shake my head. “I observed some of Donnelly and Farrow’s training, and it was clear to all the leads that those two were tight. To the point where Donnelly would probably slit his own fucking throat for his friend.” I lift my shoulders. “But one was from my side of town and had no issues taking orders. The other was Farrow.”
Maximoff thinks hard, brows cinched. Processing.
I keep going. “I knew if I asked Donnelly to run a 19k, he’d do it backwards, blindfolded, crawling on the fucking ground. The hardest thing for him isn’t physical or mental exertion in harsh conditions—it’s being told to sit down and eat celebratory pancakes knowing Farrow is about to go bust his ass in the pitch-black night.”
We were seeing if Donnelly would complain. If he would ask or fight to be with Farrow. Spend two seconds back-talking, and that’s two seconds you’re not paying attention to what’s important.
Their lives.
Our duty.
We could tell Donnelly hated it, but he did what he was told and never pushed back on the leads.
Farrow passed easily.
I rake my fingers through my hair, curling strands behind my ears. “Look, I can see how Farrow would think I was singling him out. A 19k in the dark, in the mountains, alone with no real path to follow—that was unlike anything we’ve ordered a bodyguard to do on their first day. But we had to make it hard on Donnelly to sit back.”
Maximoff nods. “I get that. But why not just tell Farrow all of this later on?”
“Farrow and I don’t talk, and like you said, he didn’t care enough about it to ask.” This might be the most I’ve ever said to Maximoff in one sitting.
Words start to pass out of my head. I don’t know what else to say.
That’s all I’ve got.
Everything else feels extraneous.
Maximoff takes a deeper breath, his shoulders loosening a fraction. “Why did you tase Farrow?”
This, I expected. “Farrow thinks it wasn’t an accident,” I state, already knowing. Farrow has told me as much. He couldn’t believe that I’d fuck-up that badly and tase him.
But I did, and I’ve taken full ownership of that mistake.
I was assigned Jane’s mom that day. Just for extra security. It was after a photo shoot for Forbes, and Farrow was leading Lily back to the car while Rose was being heckled.
The target wasn’t backing down, and there were enough people pushing from behind that it created a major problem.
Protocol: don’t draw a weapon in crowds.
I thought I had a clear shot. I broke the rule because it wasn’t a gun. It was a taser. The range was shorter and not deadly.
I still remember my line of sight. Zeroed in on the target. As soon as I took the shot, Farrow came out of nowhere and cold-cocked him. The taser hit my guy instead.
It was one of the worst days of my career.
“I fucked it,” I tell Maximoff. “I thought I had the shot.”
“So it wasn’t on purpose?” There’s a lot of earnestness in his voice. Like he wants to believe this version of history.
“I’d never purposefully tase one of my men like that,” I say sternly. The thought actually sickens me.
Silence blankets the room for a longer second.
Maximoff tries to read my features.
I’m not sure I’m anything but hard, strict lines. I push myself to add, “I’ve never hated Farrow, and I can’t fault him if he’s hated me.”
He lets out a final breath. “Thanks,” he says sincerely. “I needed to hear that.” He also reminds me, “I’ll tell Farrow what you told me, but it’s not going to mean as much to him.”
I nod.
Farrow believes in actions more than words, and he’s already given me a pretty clean slate when he didn’t have to. I’ve made Farrow repeatedly prove himself to the team. Now I have something to prove to him.
“About Jane.” Maximoff changes the subject. “I just want you to know that I’m appreciative of what you’re risking for her. It’s not a small thing, losing your privacy.”
She’s worth it.
“She’s my client,” I tell him.
Just my client. Gotta remember that.
17
JANE COBALT
Our first order of business: announce our fledgling but oh-so-romantic relationship to the public.
The security team listed out the specifics to accentuate our role as boyfriend and girlfriend, and for this first task, we have to be calculated.
The Cinderella ad is still a hot topic on the web, and if I post a photo of us kissing online, it’ll seem utterly suspicious. The media has to actually believe I’m dating my bodyguard and not trying to cover-up the ad.
For this to happen, we’re tearing a page out of the good ole celebrity handbook. Get a gossipy-someone to tip off the paparazzi about my whereabouts—and that gossipy-someone is obviously being tipped off by my “team.”
In LA, actresses, actors, celebrities and influencers do this all the time to stay relevant. I don’t much care about relevancy.
But I do care about the public believing I’m dating Thatcher. Which means the run-around is terribly essential.
“Who’s calling the paparazzi?” I ask Thatcher as I put my Volkswagen in park. We occupy a mid-row space outside a local grocery store. Pumpkins are already being sold in giant crates near the sliding glass entrances.
It’s not too busy or crowded on this sunny afternoon. But it took two hours driving around the city just to lose the cars that followed us from the townhouse.
And not all were paparazzi. I noticed new vehicles. Strange men behind the wheels.
Suitors , most likely.
Thatcher scoots the passenger seat back from the dash, giving his long legs more room. “Banks called a friend and casually mentioned you’d be at the Acme on Passyunk.” He pronounces Acme like Ack-a-me.