I turned my gaze out to the pool tables, seeing him watch me out of the corner of my eye. I knew he thought I was being silly. He probably wondered why he was still sitting here with me. I had my car. He could’ve just let me crash at his family’s house tonight and gone back to the city himself and to whatever date or function he was dressed up for.
But the truth was, I wasn’t being silly. Yeah, they were just matches, but they were also irreplaceable. And the things that were irreplaceable in life were the only things of value.
When I thought about it, there actually weren’t a lot of things or people in the world that I loved. Why had I left them here?
“They think the fire started near the stairs,” Michael said, taking a drink of his beer. “That’s how it traveled to the second floor so fast. We’ll know more tomorrow.”
I stayed silent, watching as the waitress set down two shots.
“You don’t care?” Michael broached when I didn’t say anything.
I shrugged, the anger numbing the sadness. “The house doesn’t mean anything,” I said in a low voice. “I was never happy there without my father anyway.”
“Were you happy at my house?”
I shot my eyes up, locking with his. Why was he asking that? Did he actually care? Or maybe he knew the answer.
No. No, I wasn’t happy at his house. Not without him there.
In middle school and high school, I’d loved it. Hearing the basketball bounce through the house as he walked around, feeling him in a room and not being able to concentrate on anything else, running into him in the hallway…
I loved the anticipation of just being around him.
But after he left for college and barely ever made it home, the Crist house became a cage. I was constantly circled by Trevor, and I missed Michael so much.
Being in his house when he wasn’t there was the loneliest I’d ever been.
I dropped the jar back into the box and snapped it shut, turning my head to the jukebox along the front windows.
“Can I have some money?” I asked, turning back to him.
I’d left my bag in my car.
He reached into his pocket, taking some bills off a clip. I reached over, without hesitation, and took the five I spotted, climbing out of the booth and carrying my beer with me.
Chills broke out down my arms, and I remembered that I was still in the jeans and white tank I’d changed into when I got home from school earlier. Having jumped into the car in such a hurry, I hadn’t grabbed a jacket.
Michael was in a black suit and a white shirt, open at the collar, and I wondered if he had been coming from somewhere or was going somewhere.
It didn’t matter. He could leave. I could take care of myself.
I took sips of my beer as I fed the machine the five dollars and began choosing music.
A girl’s laugh sounded behind me, and I twisted my head, recognizing Diana Forester.
She was hanging on our booth, with her hand on her hip and a coy smile on her lips as she talked to Michael.
Jesus.
They dated in high school, although I wouldn’t call it dating exactly. Kai and Michael shared her. And I only knew that because I’d seen them both kissing her in the media room one night. I’d bolted before I saw anything else, but I could definitely guess what went down.
Life past high school wasn’t so hot for her. Last I heard, she was helping her parents run the bed and breakfast they owned here in town.
He nodded at whatever she was saying, a slight tilt to his lips, but it looked like he was just indulging her.
Until she leaned down, and I thought I saw his eyes flash to me for a brief second before he smiled wider at her and reached up, touching her blonde hair.
My neck and face heated, and I spun back around.
Asshole.
Even if I never tried to, I had expectations about the man I thought he was, and I needed to knock it off.
Was I going to be the third wheel in the house tonight when he brought her home? Would I be the one sitting uncomfortable and silent a few rooms down the hall?
I was done pretending and acting like shit didn’t bother me. I was mad. Own it.
Punching buttons, I loaded only one song even though I’d paid for twenty. Downing the rest of the beer, I headed back to the booth.
Sliding the empty bottle across the table, I saw Diana jump as if she hadn’t know I was here.
“Oh, hey, Rika,” she chirped. “How’s Trevor? Are you missing him a lot?”
Trevor and I weren’t dating. Guess she didn’t get the memo.
I sat down, crossed my legs, and folded my hands, laying them on the table. Ignoring her question, I stared at Michael. He was fucking with me, and I cocked my head, holding his amused eyes.
I hadn’t asked to come to Sticks, but he’d brought me here. He didn’t get to lock in his one-night stand with me in tow. Not tonight.
The uncomfortable silence thickened, but the more I held my ground, challenging him to get rid of her, the stronger I felt.
Dirty Diana by Shaman’s Harvest began playing, and I smirked.
“Well…” Diana spoke up, touching Michael’s shoulder, “I’m so glad I ran into you. You barely make it home anymore.”
But Michael ignored her, still holding my eyes.
He cleared his throat, squinting at me. “Interesting song.”
I fought not to laugh. “Yes, I thought Diana would like it,” I replied cheerfully and then looked to her. “It’s about a woman that jumps into bed with men that aren’t hers?”