“Huh?” Cheyenne asks.
“Nothing.” I bite her shoulder softly instead of playing Adrian’s game.
“Ah, so you’re the new flavor of the week. He’s good, isn’t he?” I look up to see Deena standing in front of us. I really didn’t want to do this shit and hoped she wasn’t here. I know she doesn’t want me. She just wanted to screw around like I did, but I also know she’s the kind of girl who wants to be on top. Who wants to show everyone she doesn’t give a shit and that she’s going to use Cheyenne to do it.
“Who are—” Cheyenne says at the same time I say, “Deena.”
I feel Chey tense, but she doesn’t move off my lap.
“Stop playing games, D. No one wants to hear it.”
Adrian laughs beside me.
“She can’t speak for herself?” Deena adds.
I know this can’t end well. Deena’s not one to back down and Cheyenne doesn’t take people’s shit.
“Actually she can,” Chey says. “And maybe you were only around for a week, but I’ve been here longer than that. It doesn’t look like I’m going anywhere anytime soon, either.”
I see the shock register on Deena’s face. She didn’t expect Cheyenne to fight back. She looks like the tiny dancer she is. Looks like the princess I’ve accused her of being. That’s what Deena expected.
“Good for you.” Deena grasps for something to say, but just stands there.
“Did you need something else? We’re a little busy here.”
“Bitch,” Deena mumbles before walking away.
I bury my face in Cheyenne’s hair knowing I’ll probably regret this later, but my buzz doesn’t seem to care. “You want to stick around, huh?”
Cheyenne laughs and says. “Well, you have your uses. She was right. You are pretty good and I like your mouth.”
She turns on my lap, straddling me. Her arms go around my neck and her lips find mine. I’m scared as hell I might want her to stick around too.
***
Adrian nudges my shoulder a while later.
“What’s up lover boy?”
“Fuck off,” I tell him. I rip my eyes away from Cheyenne as she talks to her roommate on the other side of the fire. Why the hell I’m standing here and watching her, I don’t know.
“You’re different.” Adrian takes a pull from his cigarette.
“Why do you do that? Want to read my palm too?”
He puts the cigarette out and pushes it into a beer can. “I’m not psychic and don’t think I am. I just pay attention to shit. I’m not afraid to say it either. You act like an a**hole and I tell it how it is.” He shrugs and walks away.
I push every thought out of my head and get back to watching my Tiny Dancer.
~CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR~
Cheyenne
I wake up na**d and in Colt’s arms. It’s becoming a habit—a planned one, but one all the same. His hand is latched onto my breast like it always is. I think he’d surgically attach it if he could. I don’t get guys and their obsession with boobs. Not that I have huge ones, but I still struggle with guys talking to my chest instead of my face.
Colt moves behind me and I can tell by the change in his breathing that he’s waking up. He shifts, his hand tightens and I know he’s really awake.
“Even in your sleep all you think about is sex,” I tease.
“Can you blame me? I’m good at it,” he nudges a knee between my legs. I moan it feels so good, but I have stuff I need to do. Plus, I’m not sure if we’re supposed to do the morning after thing. We usually don’t. I always leave.
“I can’t.” I jump out of the bed before he can change my mind. He looks all rumpled and sexy and I want nothing more than to climb back into bed with the jerk.
“I’ll be right back.” I pull on his shirt and a pair of shorts before heading to the bathroom. I see bodies lying in the living room. This place is always packed with people. I know it’s Adrian and not Colt, but it still gets frustrating.
I go to the bathroom and then brush my teeth with the toothbrush I hid here. When I head back into the room, Colt looks like he’s already passed out again. The guy can sleep more than anyone I know. His school schedule isn’t full time, but I wonder sometimes if he ever goes.
“I should go… I have homework to do.” I grab my bag so I can get into my own clothes. I probably should have done that from the beginning, but there’s something hot about wearing a guy’s clothes that makes a girl feel sexy… Loved. Not that I want to be loved by him or anyone else, but still.
Colt opens his eyes. He shrugs like what’s he’s about to say isn’t a big deal, but the nerves in my stomach tell me it is.
“So do it here. I have some to do too.”
Something happens inside my chest. I’ve been really good at keeping him at arm’s length so far. We’re nothing alike. I think he hates me half the time and we don’t belong together. We’re a means to an end, but with his simple request, I begin to soften inside. It’s that stupid girl heart-pounding, hearts-floating-by-my-head thing. Where the guy who fights so hard to keep the distance, does something so small, it’s huge. I can’t help but let it inside. Let it mean something.
I should leave. Run right now because Colt and I wouldn’t work. It wouldn’t be like it was with Gregory. He could really hurt me—not just ding my pride.
“Don’t. You’re looking at me funny. Don’t do that, Tiny Dancer.” His voice isn’t angry at all. It almost sounds confused. “It’s just homework. I had my mouth on you…I was inside you last night. Don’t make a big deal out of nothing.”
I roll my eyes, trying to play it off. “I didn’t do anything. Sounds like you’re the one making it a big deal. Do you want me to fall for you, Colt?” I want to tease him and call him Colton like his mom does, but any kind of joking that has to do with her doesn’t feel right.
He doesn’t answer my question, but says, “Is your stuff in your car?”
“Yeah. I’ll run and get it.”
Colt shakes his head. “I’ll go. I’m sure the house is packed with passed-out a**holes.”
Again my insides soften to him. Another simple gesture, but again something really sweet.
Sitting on the bed, I take in the view while Colt gets dressed. I can tell he knows I’m watching, but I also know he’s cocky enough to get off on it. He only slips on a pair of sweats and no shirt before he disappears. He’s gone for about five minutes so I assume he went to clean up too. When he gets back in the room, Colt closes the door and tosses me my backpack.
“Do you need the computer?” he asks.
Computer? I didn’t even know he had one. “No. I have to write a paper, but I have to do first drafts with pen and paper.”
“You’re f**king crazy.” He winks as he speaks, then grabs a set of keys and unlocks a box in the closet, before pulling out a laptop.
“You lock up your computer.”
“You’ve seen the parties here, right?”
I don’t know why, but that makes me laugh. Colt shakes his head at me as I continue to giggle, but he’s smiling too.
“That’s crazy,” I say between laughs.
“I thought we just decided you were crazy.” Then he adds, “Seriously though. You never know what people will do when they’re f**ked up. I’m cool with most of the people who party here but alcohol and drugs make people do stupid shit.”
This makes me freeze. Loud music, Mom gone. I’ll help you find your mama.
A shudder takes me over.
“Hey. What’s wrong?” Colt reaches over and twirls a lock of my hair around his finger. It’s so sweet, so normal that I want to lean into him for support. To tell him everything I didn’t tell Gregory in years of going out with him.
I want him to protect me like he’s done so often, but that freaks me out too. I can’t risk needing anyone…but I almost feel like I need him.
“Nothing. Just a chill.”
He’s had to pick me up too many times. That’s not what we’re supposed to be about and whatever this thing is between us, I don’t want it to end.
“A chill my ass.” But he doesn’t call me on it, only turns on his laptop and gets to work. I do the same. We work in silence for a good hour, but I’m so aware of him. Of how he smells like man and fabric softener. It’s funny because his clothes are wrinkled half the time and he doesn’t care what he wears, but he always smells so…clean.
I look over at him, his forehead creased as he reads something on the screen and I think about how comfortable this is. How easy and normal and I can’t remember if I ever felt this way with Gregory. Actually I know I didn’t.
This is a game. Our game. One that I asked for, but with each day it feels more real. More real than anything ever has and I’m not sure how I feel about that. What to do. I shouldn’t fall for this guy. He’s got so much on his plate and he’s not the kind of guy to really fall for someone. Gregory was and look how that turned out?
I turn back to my paper.
But I do. I think I like him and part of me wants to like him while the other thinks I should stuff everything in my backpack and never come back.
When you like someone you trust them and I’ve never trusted anyone in my whole life. How can I pick Colt?
Something jabs me in the side and I jump. “Holy shit.” I look at Colt who has a pencil in his hand, close to my back. “You scared the crap out of me.”
“Where the hell were you? You sure as shit weren’t here.” He’s grinning. I love that grin so much. It’s so boy-ish. Such a contradiction to his dirty mouth and bad attitude.
“I was so lost in thought about you that I couldn’t handle it. I mean, I’m sitting here with Colt. How can I not feel totally enamored?”
He looks at me almost confused for a second before saying, “It’s about time you realized that.”