I got pissed, which meant Trent got pissed and tipped his hand, which meant Peggy got pissed, and I wasn’t sure Peg pissed was a good thing.
There was a reason Trent had come to heel. His kind of devotion to Peg could be won through reward or through punishment.
I was getting the sense right then it was punishment.
“You takin’ a payoff right in front of a cop?”
Merry’s voice, being Merry’s voice (meaning Merry was there and had seen that, then said what he said, even though I knew it was a joke), tipped me over an edge I’d been riding for a long fucking time. But that weekend it was sharper, so it didn’t take much for me to tip over.
Therefore I turned and snapped, “No it isn’t a fuckin’ payoff.”
Merry’s chin jerked down and his eyes narrowed.
“It was a joke, Cher,” he told me.
“It wasn’t a funny one,” I told him, pressing the envelope to my stomach.
He looked down to it and then up to me. “Who was that woman?”
“No one.”
At my answer, his ear dipped slowly to his shoulder before his head straightened and a look came over his face I’d never seen on him before.
But it was scary.
“What’s in the envelope, babe?” he asked, his tone forced to casual, which meant it wasn’t casual at all.
“Nothing,” I answered. “Listen, I gotta—”
“What’s in the envelope, Cher?”
“Nothing,” I repeated. “Now, goin’ back to what we were talk—”
He leaned an inch toward me and I was not a girl who was easily intimidated, but I had to admit, that inch was intimidating.
“What’d she give you? Who was that woman? Who is Trent? And what do they gotta do with Ethan?”
“Merry, straight up, this isn’t any of your business.”
That was when he leaned two inches toward me, and if one inch was intimidating, two was a threat.
This meant I should have known it was coming.
But knowing Merry, or thinking I did, thus thinking he wouldn’t have what he was going to give me in him, I had no clue.
“Made you come for me,” he whispered. “More than once. Straight up, Cher, it is. Who the fuck was that woman? Why is she passin’ off cash to you? And why’s it got you freaked way the fuck out?”
His words exploded in my head along with the knowledge he wanted to take me to Frank’s to lower a boom he didn’t know he was lowering to share, even after what we had, that we were just friends.
Therefore, so far beyond thinking about the right way to play it, I played it stupid, leaning forward and hissing, “Wouldn’t think I had to educate you, Merry, but seems I gotta educate you. Thrusting your cock in a woman like me doesn’t mean you own me.”
He leaned back, which meant he straightened, and seeing as even sitting on a stool he was taller than me and I had to look up, that sucked.
Looking up meant he was looking down. Not his chin dipped, but he was looking down his nose, superior as shit, which was infuriating, and hot as fuck, which was intensely annoying.
His voice was a low, sexy as all hell drawl when he replied, “Wouldn’t think I had to educate you either, baby. You know the man I am. You laid that shit out for me Friday night. But straight up, I thrust my cock in you, it means when some mom bitch shows at your work and freaks you out, I do what I gotta do to take your back.”
“I can take care of myself,” I snapped in another hiss.
His brows went up. “So you do got somethin’ you gotta take care of.”
Shit!
“Merry—”
I got no more out because his hand clamped on my upper arm and his head turned to the bar.
“Cher’s on break,” he growled.
“Uh…okay, dude,” Morrie replied.
I got one look in to Morrie to see he looked as freaked as me, but for an entirely different reason, before Merry dragged me to the office.
Once he had us in, he slammed the door.
I yanked my arm from his hold, took two steps into the room, turned to him, and launched right in. “If it’s okay with you, I’d actually like to use my break to eat something, Merry, not do whatever this shit is with you.”
Merry ignored me.
“Who was that woman?”
“Not your business.”
“Who…was…that woman?”
I shook my head sharply once. “Not…your…business.”
Merry kept at me. “Who’s Trent?”
“Merry, Jesus.” I planted my hands on my hips. “Let it go.”
“What’s in that envelope and why’s she givin’ it to you?”
I felt my eyes get squinty as the heat of shame and anger poured through me, not believing he’d think of me what it seemed he was thinking.
“You think I’m into bad shit?”
“Fuck no,” he returned. “You’re you, so that didn’t cross my goddamned mind. But also, that woman would cut off her own arm before she’d fuckin’ jaywalk. That doesn’t mean she didn’t freak you out. So tell me what’s goin’ down with her.”
I shook my head, trying to find control. “Seriously, Merry, I get why you’re here. Shit happened with us—you’d sustained a blow, we got drunk, it got outta hand. I get where you were and where we now are. It’s good. We’re good. Leave this shit alone, we’ll stay good.”