Tom stares at me. “Are you serious?”
I nod.
“Right.” Tom gets to his feet, suddenly looking wide awake.
“What are you doing?” Mum says, looking at him anxiously.
“I’m going to go up to school and find everyone who’s posted it online and I’m going to make them take it down.” I’ve never seen Tom look so mad.
Mum jumps to her feet and grabs hold of his arm. “You can’t do that; you’re not a student there anymore.”
Tom frowns at her. “So what? Penny is and she’s my sister. I’m not going to sit back and do nothing.”
I smile up at him gratefully.
Dad shakes his head. “It’s OK, son, I’ll take care of it. The last thing we need is you getting into any trouble.” He takes hold of my hand. “Don’t worry, sweetheart. I’ll go up to the school this morning and I’ll get them to take it off their Facebook page.”
I shake my head. “It’s the unofficial Facebook page—the teachers don’t have any control over it. And so many people have been sharing it; everyone’s going to see it anyway.”
I think of going into school and everyone looking at me and laughing at me and suddenly it’s as if I’m being pulled underwater. I can’t breathe, I can’t swallow, and my entire body starts to do this weird shaking thing. I just can’t cope with any more drama.
“Pen? Are you OK?” Elliot’s voice sounds muffled and far away.
Everyone else’s voices blend into one, kind of like a radio being tuned. “Penny?” “Pen?” “Sweetheart?” “Get her some water.” “Oh my God, she’s going to faint.”
I feel someone holding my shoulders. Someone strong. Dad.
“Take a really slow, deep breath, honey.” Mum.
“Here’s some water.” Tom.
I close my eyes and take a really slow deep breath. And another. In my mind I picture the sea, crashing in and rolling out, crashing in and rolling out. And, slowly, my body stops shaking.
“Penny, what just happened?” Mum says. She’s looking so concerned it makes me want to cry again. But I’m too scared to cry in case it brings the panic attack back, so I just keep focusing on my breathing.
“Are you OK?” Dad says. He’s still holding my shoulders tightly. It feels nice. Like I’m anchored in place.
“Shall I tell them?” Elliot asks softly.
I nod. And as I keep on focusing on my breathing, Elliot explains about the panic attacks I’ve been getting since the car accident.
Mum and Dad both look ashen-faced.
“I’m sorry,” is the first thing I’m able to say.
Dad looks at me and shakes his head. “What? Why are you sorry?”
“You should have told us,” Mum says.
“I didn’t want to worry you. And anyway, I thought it would get better, you know, once a bit of time had gone past.”
“Shall I make some tea?” Tom asks, and we all stare at him in shock. Tom never offers to make tea. I smile at him and nod.
“OK, first things first,” Dad says, putting on a businesslike voice. “We’re going to get you some help, to try to get these panic attacks under control.”
“Yes, there are lots of things you can do,” Mum adds. “I know some great breathing exercises from when I used to get stage fright.”
“You used to get stage fright?” I ask in disbelief. It’s hard to imagine my mega-confident mum being scared of anything.
Mum nods. “Oh yes—it was terrible. Sometimes I was actually physically sick before a show, but I managed to get it under control and you will too, honey.”
“That’s right,” Dad says, smiling at me. “And I’m going to call the school and tell them you’re off sick.” He takes hold of my hand. “I think you should stay off till the new year—give this all a chance to blow over. There’s only two days of term left.”
I give him a weak smile. “Thanks, Dad.”
“And thirdly,” he says, glancing at Mum, “we want you to come with us to New York.”
Elliot sighs.
I look at Dad, alarmed. “But I—”
“And we want Elliot to come too,” Dad interrupts.
“Oh my God!” Elliot’s mouth drops open so wide I can practically see his tonsils.
“We were planning on asking you both today anyway,” Mum says with a smile. “But now that this has happened, it’s even more reason for you to come.”
“It’ll only be for four days,” Dad says. “We’ll fly out on Thursday and come back Sunday, Christmas Eve.” He looks at Tom and smiles. “So we’ll still all be able to have Christmas Day together.”
I look at Elliot. He’s now grinning like he just won the lottery.
“I think it will do you a world of good to get away,” Mum says. “It’ll give you the chance to properly get over the accident—and this stupid video nonsense.”
“Yes, by the time we get back, it will be Christmas and it will have all blown over,” Dad says.
“He does have a point,” Elliot says to me, right before his phone goes off. He looks at the screen and frowns before taking the call. “Hi, Dad . . . I’m next door. Where else would I be? . . . OK, OK, I’ll be there in a minute.” He ends the call, looking at us apologetically. “It was my dad, wondering if I’m going to school today. I’d better get going.” He turns and grabs both my hands. “I know you were nervous about going on a plane, Pen, but we can all help you with that, can’t we?” He looks at my parents and they start nodding like those toy dogs people put in the back windows of their cars.