“She?”
“Are we doing this or not?” Mil wrapped the necklace around her fingers, tugging my face closer to hers.
“We’re doing it.” I kissed her hard. “And you’re right. I’m safe.”
“I know you are.” She sighed against my mouth. “It’s why I picked you.”
Five horrifyingly short minutes later, and we were both laughing our asses off.
“It’s okay!” Mil told me for the third time. “Really, I knew it wouldn’t be that great at first.”
“Wow, thanks.” I swore.
“You know what I mean!” She wrapped her arms around me. “We’ll keep practicing.”
“Practicing?”
“Yeah, silly.” She pushed against my chest. “I mean, I imagine we’ve skipped past the whole dating thing and slipped to sleeping together. But, after today—”
“Wait.” Panicking, I pushed away from her and told myself to stop freaking out. “Mil, I mean, don’t get me wrong. You’re hot as hell, but I thought this was just a one-time thing, you know? For fun.” I gave her a really big smile, hoping she’d smile back and shrug.
No smile. No shrug. But I did see tears begin to well.
“Aw, shit.” I pinched the bridge of my nose. “Mil, we can talk about it, I mean, if you wanted a boyfriend you should have—”
“I never said I wanted a boyfriend.” Mil looked down at her hands. “I said I wanted to feel safe. You promised you were safe. You promised.”
“I know and I am. Why? Did I hurt you?”
“You’re hurting me now!” She threw a pillow at my face and jumped out of her bed. “Where the hell is my bra?”
“Mil, stop freaking out.”
“I’m not freaking out. I just can’t believe how stupid I am. You know what? It’s not even worth it. At least I’m not a virgin anymore. At least he can’t hurt me.” Tears were streaming down her cheeks; she wiped them away and laughed. ‘Try not to feel, Mil.’ What a pathetic joke. Because I feel every damn thing.”
“Mil!” I grasped her shoulders and shook her. “Look at me.”
She raised her eyes, but they were empty. What the hell was going on?
“Mil?” A knock came on the door. Phoenix? What the hell was Phoenix doing there? I went to open it, but Mil punched me in the jaw before I was able to do anything.
“What the hell!” I yelled from the floor.
“Don’t open the door!” Tears mixed with rage made her face like a mask of turmoil. I pushed her away, still gripping my jaw, and jerked open the door.
“Not a good time, man.” I rubbed my jaw. Phoenix’s eyes took in my state of undress, then he pushed me out of the way and stomped toward Mil.
“What the hell do you think you’re doing? Dad’s going to go ape-shit if he finds you in here!”
“Dad?” I croaked.
Mil didn’t look apologetic.
“Let him,” Mil said in a numb voice. “What’s done is done.”
“Mil—” Phoenix closed his eyes and leaned against the wall. “Please tell me you didn’t… not with Chase.”
“Like I said, what’s done is done. Now he can’t hurt me.”
Confusion went off like a freaking atom bomb in my system. Now I couldn’t hurt her? Or was she talking about someone else? And who the hell was she?
Phoenix threw a shirt at Mil and stalked toward me. “If you touch her again, I’ll gut you from head to toe.”
“I didn’t know, man, I promise. I had no idea.” I held up my hands. “Swear.”
Mil cursed and pushed her way into our conversation. “Let’s go, Phoenix.”
Phoenix gave me one last look and led the way out the door.
“Why me?” I whispered as Mil stepped by.
“Because I knew you wouldn’t hurt me,” she answered.
“But I did.”
“Not in the way I was worried about.” She sighed and grabbed Phoenix’s hand. They walked like that all the way to the elevators, leaving me empty.
It was the last time I saw Mil. And the beginning of the end of my relationship with Phoenix…
“You awake?” Mil elbowed me in the ribs. “Come on, sunshine.”
“Everything hurts,” I grumbled, not recognizing my own lust-filled voice. Oh great. How was I going to explain that away? Sorry Mil, but I’m a male, and you’re a female, and sometimes when males get… shit. If I couldn’t say aroused in my head, I sure as hell couldn’t say it out loud.
“Seriously, Chase.” Mil smothered me with her pillow. “I know you’re sore.”
Damn, her choice of words needed help. I wasn’t sore. I was dying. Every part of my anatomy that made me a man was slowly going to shrink away into my body if I couldn’t get my head out of my ass and focus on anything except the fact that about two seconds ago I’d felt her breast graze my arm.
Married.
We were married.
So br**sts? Totally okay. Fine. Not a problem.
“Alright, well if you’re not going to go shower first, then I am. We have a plane to catch.”
“You can’t be serious!” That snapped me out of it. “You want us to go on our honeymoon after everything that went down last night?”
“It was never a honeymoon.” Mil stopped halfway toward the bathroom and turned. “Vegas is close — but it’s also where my mom lives, one of the reasons I didn’t want to go.”